For those of you who have been following along with me, know that I just celebrated my 24th birthday. And though I had a great time, we all know that you can only escape reality for a short period of time. This past month has been kicking my butt, and as I told my therapist last week, “I feel myself slipping back into a dark place.”
Plain and simple: ADULTING IS HARD!!
Just to give you all an update; June 14th would’ve been my dad’s 53rd birthday, which is a couple days before Father’s Day. This time of the year is always rough for me. It’s been four years since he passed away and unfortunately we never had a good relationship. I always think about how he missed the chance to make things right between us. I am working through it in therapy, but it doesn’t change the fact that every time the holiday rolls around, I think about all the special moments a father and daughter share, that I will never get the chance to. And no one, and I mean no one prepared me for the day where I would have to balance adulthood and grief.
The funny thing is one of my closest friends gave me a trophy to congratulate me on the great job that I have done adulting. Some days I feel so accomplished and proud of myself, but other times I just feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
It was hard enough balancing college and grief, but balancing adulthood and grief is a new level of stress.
Here a visual representation of my current situation:
All this stress has caused me to become inconsistent with writing, but A Feminine Space is very special to me. I enjoy writing and curating content for you all, and instead of beating myself up and only wanting to create content when I feel good, I want to challenge myself to write through all my emotions.
So I say all of this to say that I want A Feminine Space to be a safe space where we share all things. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
My obsession with happy endings has resulted in a need for me to always end things on a good note.
So I would like to re-introduce myself:
My name is Savannah
I’ve had a passion for sharing my life and telling stories since I was a kid ( Every weekend my uncle recorded what I called, “The Savannah Show”. I will have to dip them up and show yall some clips.)
Some of my favorite movies are The Twilight Saga (Team Edward), The Hunger Games Trilogy, The Divergent Series, and The Host
Some of my favorite shows are Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, Ginny & Georgia, and The Mindy Project.
Some of my favorite artists are Justin Bieber, Chris Brown, The Jonas Brothers, Nicki Minaj, and Olivia Rodrigo.
I have an unhealthy obsession with Disney. Some of my favorites are Lemonade Mouth, Hannah Montana, That’s So Raven, The Cheetah Girls. (The list never ends lol)
I suffer from severe anxiety which is really the cause of most of my emotional problems.
I also thought I’d share some of my currents:
Currently reading: Midnight Sun
Currently watching (I am a multi-show watcher lol):
- The Walking Dead ( My boyfriend and I are on season 11, and I cannot wait to finish so we can start watching all the new shows from the Universe)
- The Vampire Diaries ( I am so late I know, but in my defense when I was growing up you couldn’t like Twilight and The Vampire Diaries, but I am on season one, and I have been enjoying it)
- House of the Dragon (The first episode of the new season was wild asf, can’t wait to see how this season ends)
